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Valentine’s Day Gift Guide / HipsAndCurves.com

Valentine’s Day Gift Guide / HipsAndCurves.com

I’ve been window shopping again! Here are some of my favorite plus size lingerie picks for the Valentines this year! The little ties that keep the top of this baby doll closed just beg to be untied! The halter style top ensures it will fit. […]

Valentine’s Day Gift Guide / SheVibe.com

Valentine’s Day Gift Guide / SheVibe.com

It’s almost Valentine’s Day, which means I have to roll over all my favorite site and see if there are any holiday inspired items I need. (Yes, celebrating holidays is a NEED for me!) Here are the Valentine’s Day items at Shevibe.com that pique my interest […]

Oh I Like This / Jan 2018

Oh I Like This / Jan 2018

__________NEW YEAR__________

Hi! I am pretty well healed! I am moving out of full sloth mode and into some more active means of caring for myself. How? Well, I have this list I made while I was in the thick of cancer treatment of things to look forward to. Now I need to make them happen!

My big goal is to get some of this fat off of my body. (Fat produces estrogen, estrogen has the potential to produce cancer in my body.) I need to get strong so I can get back to martial arts.

I also just sent another email to this local organization that does housing advocacy for the elderly, mentally ill and homeless individuals. I submitted my application to volunteer last month but have not heard back. Either they are overwhelmed and really need me, or they don’t need me at all. Either way, I’m gonna try to put my skills to use. If not for them, then for some other organization. As a formerly homeless person, I can not sit back and hope that someone else takes care of the problems in my community. If you don’t know… volunteering is a super awesome selfish act… for many, it elevates depression and makes your heart feel good. I recommend it.

__________YUM__________

I am really excited about this cookbook. It’s called Greens Glorious Greens!: More than 140 Ways to Prepare All Those Great-Tasting, Super-Healthy, Beautiful Leafy Greens and it’s full of recipes that take what may have been bland leaves and turns them into deliciousness!

Oh and my friend sent me some of these San Jaun Island Sea Salt blends. They are amazing! If you are a pervert for spices like I am… get some!

__________FEEL GOOD__________

At work, we use bonus.ly. Everyone in the office gets points at the beginning of the month. If someone helps you with a project or goes above and beyond we can give each other points as a thank you and recognition. I recently cashed my points in for a Sephora gift card and scored this stunning Bite Beauty Lipstick in a color called beetroot. It’s a deep, dark, sexy lip color. I also got a pallet of Stellar Stardust Lip Powder. The powder is great for layering. It adds some metallic shimmer.

__________SEXY__________

I have always loved Eric Stanton’s illustrations. Here’s a great collection of his pulp book covers. I wrote this article on sex toy materials. I also answered this question about sex toys throughout history and this piece on why people engage in kinky sex. On this podcast, EmmelinePeaches talks about how fitness effects sexual wellness. And for those who like to wear your cock, AFemmeCock has this cool tutorial on how to make a rope strap-on.

__________READ__________

My_Favorite Thing is Monsters coverMy family gave me some beautiful books for the holidays. My Favorite Thing is Monsters is a huge, beautiful graphic novel, page after page of beautifully drawn storytelling.

My husband gave me a copy of The Quotable Anais Nin: 365 Quotations with Citations. He also gave me Raw Erotica: Sex, Lust and Desire in Outsider Art. I do love outsider art, but this volume is more about explicitness than it is erotica. Still a lovely and disturbing book.

__________THANK YOU__________

Thank you to beyonddelights.com for coming to my online classes for retailers and turning what they learn into thoughtful articles, like this one on sex and unwanted pain. I love seeing good hearted companies bringing good things into the world.

Thanks to Women of Sex Tech for inviting me to be a part of your group. I am honored to be a part of this powerful force!

Thank you (x1000) to Lilly for telling the world I am one of her blogging inspirations. This is a huge compliment.

The Truth About Menopause

The Truth About Menopause

If you are new here, I recently survived cancer. In doing so I had to accept going into abrupt surgical menopause. I have had no hormone replacement options available as they stand a high chance of causing more cancer in my body. But you know […]

You Heal Me / You Fuel Me

You Heal Me / You Fuel Me

Now that I have beaten cancer (OMG that feels so good to say!) I will start blogging about how I manage my medical bills, the insurance company, and the VA. (My husband is a disabled combat veteran. I figure there are more vets and those […]

Here’s What I’m Cooking for Christmas Dinner

Here’s What I’m Cooking for Christmas Dinner

It’s Christmas dinner on a budget, but I think it will still be beautiful! I’m making this chicken recipe my husband found. I could not find creme fraiche at the store, so I made some from scratch. (I now have a bunch of buttermilk… I’m not sure what to do with it? I am taking suggestions if you have any?)

I’m making these bacon-wrapped green bean bundles and deviled eggs. I’ll whip up some gravy by hand but the stuffing and mash potatoes will be out of a box.

For dessert, I’m making him a pecan pie. I am making myself these 3 ingredient flourless brownies. [EDIT: Don’t make that brownie recipe! It was horrible!] I have a frosting recipe but I don’t know where it came from because it’s scribbled on a paper. It looks like this:

Chocolate Protein Frosting [EDIT: This was bluck too!]

  • 2 scoops chocolate protein powder
  • 1-2 tbs sweetener of your choice
  • 1-2 tbs nut or seed butter
  • 1 tbs milk or liquid

At the end of the night, I’ll wrap the leftover chicken in pie dough and pop that chicken pot pie in the freezer for another night.

I Hide My Tears / But Not Very Well

I Hide My Tears / But Not Very Well

I am a very stoic individual. I don’t like to express my pain or vulnerabilities publically. I was at work when the doctor called. He did not ask me where I was or prepare me for the news. He just said hello, told me who […]

This is What A Sex Worker Looks Like

This is What A Sex Worker Looks Like

I left Show World on a high note. I left before I was totally burned out. My soul intact. Sure I had my rough days at the peepshows: an attempted assault here or there or people trying to coerce me in various ways. But I […]

Oh I Like This | Dec 2017

Oh I Like This | Dec 2017

__________HOLIDAYS__________

I love any excuse to celebrate! In my house its normal for us to decorate, cook and do it up on holidays. I also made my own wrapping paper this year. I found this cherry ink spray. I just used that along with white butchers paper and went to town. I also found this cute guide on Pinterest on How to Draw Snowflakes. So easy!

For the first time ever I got not one but TWO advent calendars. The first one I bought myself. It’s a beautiful pop-up tree advent calendar from the Metropolitan Museum of Art. Each day I get a new little paper bird that attaches to the branches. (A secret… I love birds! I actually have sixteen sets of wings tattooed on my body.)

Then a friend sent me a dark chocolate advent calendar all the way from Europe! This year’s calendar is out of stock now, but each year this luscious chocolate company puts out a new calendar. Now I am totally hung up on advent calendars. I think there should be a little surprise calendar to count down every holiday! Like you could give 24 days love letters for Valentines or 24 days of firecrackers to count down Independence Day! I’m pretty sure this needs to happen.

__________YUM__________

I have been working on my food intake this month. After surgery, I have been losing weight. It’s fine, I need to lose weight, but I really feel like I am losing muscle more than fat. I can’t workout yet so I am doing what I can with food and intake. I’m exploring food for energy. I want fuel. I found this really simple, yummy slow cooker chicken recipe. I am also been into adding apple bits and hazelnut oil to salads. And my favorite treat right now is Bark Thins. They call it “snacking chocolate.” Who can resist snacking chocolate!?

__________SKIN CARE___________

I have had a lot of time for self-care (despite having a limited physical ability.) These days I am loving Jason Body Wash. It’s so easy on my hyper-allergic skin. I picked up this very affordable Whole Blends Honey shampoo and conditioner. Honestly, I got it because I had a coupon. Turns out it’s really lovely. It smells like some of my favorite honey scented products from L’Occitane! Now I am tempted to try the other scents in the Whole Blends lines.

A friend sent me these really cool face, hand and foot masks from Sephora in a care package. They are so lovely and a great way to spoil yourself. Trouble is it’s been cold here in New York so I popped them into my Warm and made them perfectly comforting. Because they are individually wrapped I did not have to worry about messing up my fancy warming device!

__________SEXY__________

On the sexy side of things, I am tickled to see the AVANT silicone dildos are just starting to hit the market. The color pallets, package designs, and prototypes have been floating around the Blush design department for some time. I am such a dork that I get so excited to see them released, but I do!

They are pretty, single density, platinum cured silicone with bright, horizontal lines of color. Each one (there are six designs in all) are harness compatible, have suction cup bases, and they have loads of G spot and prostate possibilities! I love the colors so much that I wish I had striped socks to match each one of them! You can find them at SheVibe.com.

The Butter Natural Moisture & LubeI have fallen in love with The Butters Original All Natural Lube & Moisturizer. It’s a smooth, creamy moisturizer that can be used for your hands, feet, elbows or knees. It’s also perfect for using your hands on your partner! (Yes– SEX!)

It’s a really lovely body product and super fun to use with your partner. Because it’s oil-based do not use this with your latex safer sex barriers– like condoms, gloves, and dental dams. If you have not been tested with your partner and are no fluid bonded… use it just for solo play. Now I want to try everything they make!

Another sexy little thing you might like is this Which Nipple Clamps Should you Buy? by littleswitchbitch.com. There are so many kinds of clamps out there– it’s fun to explore your options!

__________READ__________

Cancer has forced me to move closer to my fears and accept them. Medical trauma, financial insecurity, death, the impact all of these things have on the people I love… for this reason I am soaking up When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times by Pema Chodron. If you have heartache, have experienced loss, gone through a divorce– I am sorry to hear that. I highly recommend this book. It will give you new ways to assess the process and cope with the realities of hardship.

A couple good articles I have found lately include No Visible Abuse: Domestic Violence & Traumatic Brain Injury. It’s a great piece that reminds us of the impact trauma and abuse can have on a survivor and how not all trauma one suffers is visible.

What does it feel like to lose your home late in life? This heartbreaking story about how capitalism uproots some of our most vulnerable citizens. It makes me want to find aging individuals in my own community and find ways to care for them. Once I heal I think I’ll do that.

__________Thank You__________

Thanks to Kinkly for including my book in their Kinkly Gift Guide: Our Top Picks for Sex Toy Novices!

More thanks to Elle Chase for including my book on her list of 25 Books Every Sex Nerd Should Read and Reference.

Finally, thank you to my beloved sex bloggers who sent me this super cute get well soon card! I encourage you to get to know these filthy, kind souls!

 

 

Timeline of Hysterectomy Healing Process

Timeline of Hysterectomy Healing Process

This is a timeline of my healing process. I’m creating it to remind myself how far I have come and to help other people who experience a robotic, radical hysterectomy to know what they might expect. Doctor’s say it should be six weeks until I am fully […]

I Am Alive

I Am Alive

Quick post as I have limited energy. Forgive my typos, I’ll try to clean them up once I have more wits. On surgery day I went from being emotionally distressed to terror as they started popping the IV in my arm, to absolute physical trauma. I came to in […]